Plastic bags in Africa.

I was on Skype with my best and closest friend today. We were discussing our plan to live on a sailing boat and as usual he made me laugh with his comments. I said to him that there was no way I am living on a boat in Sweden.
You should have seen the face he pulled and then he says: – NO WAY!!
He said: -People are talking about that we need to have change of seasons to be happy but that is not true! Look at the people in Africa! It is hot there all the time and they are happy and having fun. Just give them a plastic bag and they become really happy.
This is where I lost it. I started to laugh so much that my stomach was hurting.
Then he says: – Just look at the people here in Sweden! If you give them a plastic bag they just look at you and ask you what the heck is that?! So we are not staying here we are sailing the boat to The Caribbean!

Bless him he is so funny and he knows how to turn a rainy day around.
So I guess we are looking for a place where they are happy with plastic bags and plays football with coconuts 🙂 Simple happy life LOL

I can live anywhere as long as I have my internet and a comfortable bed. Haven’t told him yet that we will be having two cats with us though.. 😛  Ah well…

Home Sweet Home

Martinha Magdalena? Not for easily offended people.

The Sacred Prostitute, The whore of Babylon Mary Magdalene /Maria Magdalena..
You have all heard about that woman who hooked up with Jesus and hanged out with him and his friends. They where apparently like husband and wife but when the relationship ended because of the man (of course..) in this case Jesus went and died. I personally think that it was a bit stupid of him leaving her to deal with the mess but I recognize the situation. Well anyway, guess what, she has returned and she has returned as: Tada ME!
At least if you shall believe the stories going around here. (Yes I do know that it is an Islamic country but there must be some poor woman in their book as well who shares the same fate as me and Mary.)  I will never seize to amaze over the stories people can come up with and for every time it is told it becomes worse! And it is all because of jealousy.

The women are jealous because I am liberated. I love my life. I HAVE a life besides cooking and watching soaps. I can go where I want, I don’t have to obey anyone. I don’t need a man to provide for me so I can choose to be with whomever I want. I can marry for love if I so wish. I enjoy my life and cherish my freedom and I like to have sex with my boyfriend. Of course they would never admit it because I am just bad to the bone. But when I think about it, the biggest sluts are the ones who is gossiping about me because in the end, they are the ones who is sleeping with someone they don’t love and gets paid for it. Oooops!!

The men around here are pissed off because I like sex.. Just not with them! So if I find someone I do like to have a relationship with then I am a slut and if I refuse to have it with them then I am a slut because of that! So I am damned if I do and damned if I don’t. So these poor little men who marries simply because it is convenient ends up with a woman they don’t love, who just wants their money and they have to seek up a real prostitute or get a girlfriend on the side and provide for her as well….. Way to go Sherlock….. And you look down on me for loving my boyfriend (when I have one) and really appreciate the time I spend with him? I see the green eyed monster here… Get real and get a grip of yourself!

Well anyway a good friend told me a really good quote.
What other people thinks of me is not my business! If it brings you happiness then please be my guest. I will give you that one. 

So what is the point with this story? Well don’t be so fast to judge someone if you are living in a small town. Just because someone is nice, happy and smiling it doesn’t mean that she is sleeping with all the men in town even though they might want to. Don’t be scared of her, learn from her and maybe you will be happy too!

So what am I guilty of? Well I am guilty of having male friends in an Islamic country. I am guilty of loving to go dancing where women normally don’t go outside so I have to go with my male friends and I am guilty of loving to be happy and smiling and I am guilty of being different and walk on my own path. And since I am from Sweden and mixed with Brazilian blood it means that I flirt naturally but it stays with that. After all everyone knows how uptight and stiff Swedish people are. But if I would choose to share my bed with someone, it is my business and not anyone else’s!

I am me, I like being me and I will continue with being me and do what is right for me.
Nothing people say about me will change that. I am different and then people always talks. I am used to it and I forgive you for being narrow minded and not knowing better. And let the one without sin throw the first stone….. 😛

Note to self: You chose’d the wrong carreer girl, damn, those married bitches have some nice houses and nice cars and they are not even nice!! 😛

This post is dedicated to Mary of Magdalene and my friend Marina who said I just had to blog about this because it made her laugh.

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Turning Chaos into Cosmos

I’m sitting here again… In the middle of the night with a snake nest of feelings. I’m thinking about my ex, if I dare to trust him again. Should I follow my heart or do what I have been doing for more than a year now and try to resist? Or should I just throw myself out there over the cliff and feel. Love without limits and not knowing what will come next. Stop thinking and live like there is no tomorrow. Love with all I have got knowing that it might hurt in the end but just be here and now and let go of all control that I love to have.
Maybe, I don’t know. If I do I will feel like I betray my friends that has been there for me.
But if I don’t then maybe I betray me. My panic attacks are an indicator that I am not doing very well. So I will take one day at a time and do what feels best in that moment when it comes to love. I don’t know what will happen and it is ok. Maybe I need to break down in a way I never have done before to be able to move on? Who knows..  All I know is that I do love him and I can not deny that, I will stop trying to understand why I love him, it just is.
I am sure it will resolve itself for the better. 

I am worried about my Visa renewal.. I put my trust in a dear friend but it might not turn out like it was planned and that means I will have some problems getting my visa and without my visa I will not get a work permit. I need to have some money in the bank just for show and since I don’t make that much working here it can be hard to raise the money especially at the beginning of the season so I was planning on doing 3 years this time so I eliminate one thing that gives me stress. But now I don’t know what will happen. I believe in my friend, I don’t loose faith. Maybe I just need to ask a few more people instead of getting it all from one place. I am confident in that it will be ok.
I will get my Visa for more than one year.

I seem to have lost a few friends this week and I get remarks and comments that hurt my feelings. I don’t know what is going on but I don’t like it so I am distancing myself from them. I wonder if it has to do with the massive de-cluttering I did in my bedroom, it can stir up a lot of things if you believe in Feng Shui like I do.. People are just rude out of no where saying horrible things and you become totally shocked because you don’t see it coming. I guess I need to do some cleaning… I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you.
Well I wish those people luck in their lives and I hope they will live a long and happy life.

Now when they are gone there are room for some lovely and positive people. People who sees ME and accepts that I am different but have a good heart. People who inspires me and let me return the favor. I met one woman, she is a bit older but what and inspiration she is. I hope I am like her when I reach her age.
Wow, she is just awesome!

Someone told me today that life is not supposed to be this emotional roller coaster I am on at the moment but like a nice river with a steady flow. I really liked the sound of that and I could relate to that. I feel like I need to find my way back into the good feeling and how to stay there no matter what. When I learn that I will be a rich woman shortly after that I think. 🙂 Writing helps a lot even though this blog was not meant to went my personal things on but what the heck they are part of me. And I have decided that I will turn my life around and be successful in all areas so it is only fair that you get to follow me in my ups and downs.
The most fantastic river flows inside me, I just have to reach it. 

I want to thank my friends for listening to me, supporting and comforting me when I am down. You guys are true friends ans sometimes we sit and laugh even though we are crying and going through some rough periods. I feel very lucky to have you in my corner.  You are like Mickey in Rocky. Hard but right and you kick my ass when I need it.
I can do this!

 

Feeling ugly

I am that kind of woman that can be gorgeous and ugly depending on how I feel. It has nothing to do with my looks or weight. I am not a skinny girl but I have IT or I have it the days when I am feeling good.
When I am:

  • Negative
  • Complaining
  • Not laughing
  • Judging
  • Bitter
  • Have pain
  • Tired
  • Nagging
  • Focusing on problems
  • Don’t see the positive sides.

Then I am just plain ugly! It doesn’t matter how nice I try to make myself look. I am just ugly no matter what because I feel ugly and it is not me.
But whenever I:

  • Smile
  • Laugh
  • Is creative
  • Is positive
  • Give people compliments
  • Dance
  • Really enjoy the sunshine
  • Tell jokes
  • See the positive sides of things
  • Try to be constructive and helpful when I have a conflict.
  • Enjoy people for who they are
  • Remember to be grateful
  • etc..

Then I am in the right state of mind I glow from within and that is when I feel beautiful and gorgeous. I like that feeling so I try to smile as much as possible. My philosophy is that if I will get wrinkles then it should be from laughing! 🙂

Some of you might know that I have been having a low period that I am moving away from and just before I wrote this post I turned on one of the radio channels with dance music and I automatically gets in a better state of mind and I am smiling as I am writing because I have decided that today I want to feel absolutely fabulous so that’t my mission for today.

How do you want to feel? 🙂

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Remember this…

Remember this about you 

1. All is well.
2. I am enough for me (I don’t need something from someone else).
3. God, Source, the Universe is enough for me.
4. Everything has worked out for me.
5. I am living the story of my worthiness.
6. I am Free.
7. I am Love.
8. There is great love here for me.
9. I am always taken care of, always have been, am now, and will be.
10. I love you. 

🙂 🙂 🙂

The Law of the Garbage Truck by David J. Pollay

A few years ago I came across a very interesting story I thought I should share with you today. It is a wonderful story written By David Pollay, a very nice and inspirational man. And his little story was passed around on the internet and it became a lifestyle for many of us and a book. I want to say thank you to David who lets me share this story with you and for giving us this tool to make the world a nicer place to be. Thank you!
Please enjoy this story and maybe it will be your lifestyle as well. 🙂

The Law of the Garbage Truck by David J. Pollay
How often do you let other people’s nonsense change your mood? Do you let a bad driver, rude waiter, curt boss, or an insensitive employee ruin your day? Unless you’re the Terminator, you’re probably set back on your heels. However, the mark of your success is how quickly you can refocus on what’s important in your life.

Sixteen years ago I learned this lesson. And I learned it in the back of a New York City taxi cab. Here’s what happened.

I hopped in a taxi, and we took off for Grand Central Station. We were driving in the right lane when all of a sudden, a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, the car skidded, the tires squealed, and at the very last moment our car stopped just one inch from the other car’s back-end.

I couldn’t believe it. But then I couldn’t believe what happened next. The driver of the other car, the guy who almost caused a big accident, whipped his head around and he started yelling bad words at us. How do I know? Ask any New Yorker, some words in New York come with a special face. And he even threw in a one finger salute! I couldn’t believe it!

But then here’s what really blew me away. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was friendly. So, I said, “Why did you just do that!? This guy could have killed us!” And this is when my taxi driver told me what I now call, “The Law of the Garbage Truck™.” He said:
“Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they look for a place to dump it. And if you let them, they’ll dump it on you.

So when someone wants to dump on you, don’t take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. Believe me. You’ll be happier.”

So I started thinking, how often do I let Garbage Trucks run right over me? And how often do I take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home, or on the street? It was then that I said, “I don’t want their garbage and I’m not going to spread it anymore.”

I began to see Garbage Trucks. Like in the movie “The Sixth Sense,” the little boy said, “I see Dead People.” Well now “I see Garbage Trucks.” I see the load they’re carrying. I see them coming to dump it. And like my taxi driver, I don’t take it personally; I just smile, wave, wish them well, and I move on.

One of my favorite football players of all time was Walter Payton. Every day on the football field, after being tackled, he would jump up as quickly as he hit the ground. He never dwelled on a hit. Payton was ready to make the next play his best. Over the years the best players from around the world in every sport have played this way: Muhammad Ali, Nadia Comaneci, Bjorn Borg, Chris Evert, Michael Jordan, Jackie Robinson, and Pele are just some of those players. And the most inspiring leaders have lived this way: Nelson Mandela, Mother Theresa, Gandhi, and Martin Luther King.

See, Roy Baumeister, a psychology researcher from Florida State University, found in his extensive research that you remember bad things more often than good things in your life. You store the bad memories more easily, and you recall them more frequently.

So the odds are against you when a Garbage Truck comes your way. But when you follow The Law of the Garbage Truck™, you take back control of your life. You make room for the good by letting go of the bad.

The best leaders know that they have to be ready for their next meeting. The best sales people know that they have to be ready for their next client. And the best parents know that they have to be ready to greet their children with hugs and kisses, no matter how many garbage trucks they might have faced that day. All of us know that we have to be fully present, and at our best for the people we care about.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let Garbage Trucks take over their lives.

What about you? What would happen in your life, starting today, if you let more garbage trucks pass you by?

Here’s my bet: You’ll be happier.

—DAVID J. POLLAY

You can find more about The Law of the Garbage Truck on facebook if you follow this link: http://www.facebook.com/thelawofthegarbagetruck

And if you are interested in his book just Click here

Be careful what you wish for….

… You might just get it! 🙂

I just had to share this short story about my latest manifestation.

Well you all know that I have some issues. I try to bury my ex but he keeps crawling out of the good damn whole! Anyway I was not feeling very well a few days ago and I wrote on my fb wall that I wish I could could lay next to my Mc Dreamy (my term for dream guy) on a sofa and just cuddle. I was feeling a bit low and hugs always makes me feel better. Anyway after I wrote about it I forgot about it and continued my day.
I must be a bad ass manifesterette because later that evening I did get a phone call from Mc Dreamy, litterally!!  You see I actually have a friend who I named Mc Dreamy in my phone and I haven’t heard from him for more than 1½ month. So that same evening he called came and picked me up and brought me to his place and he gave me all the hugs I needed laying on the sofa just relaxing AND he even brought me some Mc Donalds comfort food (my favorite but it really expensive here). Talk about instant delivery!
Thank you Law of Attraction! 🙂 I love you!