Mini Coopers

Something funny is happening. I wrote before that I am reading The Power by Rhonda Byrnes and it says that when you are happy for others instead of being jealous then you are allowing it into your life. I love Mini Coopers and I would like to have one and the other day I saw a turqoise one and it was soooo cool! Now I see it almost every day and I start to see a red one and several others as well. And they are quite rare here but now I see them everywhere! It is so cool! And everytime I see one I say Yes! Who knows maybe I will become together with the man who owns the turqoise one hahaha.

And I have to give you some good news after yesterdays rant, I am getting my scooter back today and they made it really nice and it was a good price. I am really grateful for thay. 🙂

Now I need to get back to work.
Be safe friends!



I am not alone….

This will be one blurry post but I just need to get it out… 
Since I was a child I have had… hmm… followers. I heard them and they talked with me and I could feel them and I played with them but I could only “see” the bad ones and I had horrible nightmares until I was quite old. And then it suddenly all disappeared but sometimes I had visitors at night and they came as a person I knew and liked and we used to have really long conversations and they always left me with a really good feeling inside. One time when I was in a major depression a man came and he was sitting next to me when I was sleeping and he was gently touching my face and when I woke up I felt much better. I really missed having them around.

Yesterday I was standing with my Scooter waiting to cross a street when a drunk driver drives straight in to me. I got really scared because I fell on the side and hit my side into the pavement and I had an operation in November where they removed a lumbar disc so I was to be honest really freaking scared. The scooter was smashed and I called my colleagues and they came and helped me with the whole procedure and they took me to the hospital. 
They jack ass who drove started lying and said it was his girlfriend who drove and she backed him up. If you have ever been in Turkey then you know that the normal traffic rules only works in theory here so I was standing like on a crossing area with my scooter because it is so dangerous to cross and Mister Drunk driver came to fast and missed the road and drove straight into me. So he started to blame me as well for standing in the wrong place and then put the blame on his girlfriend. My colleagues tried to sort it out in private to protect me thinking that I was wrong but since they drove me to the hospital for x-rays a police case was opened. So that meant that I had to argue both with my colleagues and Mr Drunk Driver and his god damn girlfriend. My colleagues told me to do what I think was best but I have to do it alone. Luckily for me one friend and my ex works in that hospital and was backing me up and we agreed that I should just tell the truth like I always do and everything will be fine. And then the police came… I was so lucky that it was policemen that I have dealt with before when I was helping a customer and since I was sober and my credibility was a bit higher they listened to me and they separated the couple and they got the girl to withdraw her confession and then we spent the whole night waiting for Mr Drunk Driver to confess. After 3 hours he finally gave in and we could do the report. Then the next problem came… I had to do it alone in Turkish (my colleague didn’t want to get involved) but let me say this, the guys and woman at the police station was AMAZING!! 
I love the Turkish police. I made the report, I told the truth and I told them that I stood at the wrong place but they said that it doesn’t matter because the way he drove into me was totally his fault. They took his drivers licence away and he can apply for a new one in 6 months and he had to pay a quite high fine. The truth shall set you free….. 
I was so scared for my back, because I am fighting so hard to come back to normal. I was then really scared because I realized how lucky I am that only the scooter was damaged and i got a few bruises. I have worked in the hospital, I have seen the traffic accidents, I know that I am fortunate to sit here today and write this post. But I was only angry because he lied me straight in the face and that he tried to blame his girlfriend. He is such a piece of shit and I told him straight to his face that that he is a man without any honor. It took all of my strength to not smack across his mouth as he was lying. 

But the worst part was that I felt totally alone even though I was surrounded by people. If any other woman would be through the same thing they would hug her and let her cry and be upset.. But not me, because I am so strong that if I break they don’t know how to handle it. Yes I am really strong, I have been through so much crap that is more than enough for a whole lifetime but that is ok I can take that. But I am human too and I need to be allowed to take a step back and cry, receive a hug and a shoulder to lean on. But there never is a shoulder to lean on…. I just feel the tears coming and I can not allow them to fall because if I do, there is no one to stop them or wipe them away so I swallow and blink them away. 

So I came home in the middle of the night and one of my cats was waiting for me and he didn’t leave my side until I fell asleep. But someone else came and took over….
One of “them” came.. They came as one of the waiters at work named Osman. I like Osman very much he is a lovely person so I guess that is why they chose to come as him. He came and he just pulled me into his arms and he just stood and hold me there and kissed my forehead and he said I am not letting you go……… 
It was such a relive to feel “them” again. I am not alone, I am safe They are still here with me.. 🙂 
I felt sad this morning when I woke up because I had to leave them… And I have been low all day at work until one of my colleagues came and told me that he totally understood that guy and that he would also blame his girlfriend. I told him to fuck off in a nice way and I said that he wouldn’t say that if it was his kid that was hit. He just said we are all doing things that are illegal. What a bloody twat!! It just made me bat shit crazy and ever since I have been feeling like I want to get down to the beach, with a bottle of wine and a friend and just stick my feet into the sand and get rid of all of this bad energy. So that is exactly what I will be doing and I will cry and tomorrow I will be totally ok again and almost like new. 

So I guess what I am trying to say is that it is totally OK to have crap days and be angry, sad or whatever. Now I will go and have the breakdown I so well deserve. 
Be safe and don’t drink and drive!!

Over and out. 

But I am so grateful to be here today. 

Just move to another table.

It is 09.10 and I’m sitting in the garden at work. I am this kind of person who likes to take it easy in the morning and share fun positive things. One of my colleagues are the opposite, she is loud and as soon as I sat down to join them a loud complaint rant started and I could feel my energy levels sank and the irritation started to rise. I just looked at my colleague and said: “I’m not doing this!” And then I simply just removed myself from the situation and moved to a different table. Problem solved!
And here I am writing this blog feeling all good again. The birds are singing, the sun is shining recharging my battery. I can see the yachts on the sea. Life is great! And tonight I have a lovely dinner to look forward to.

So I wanted to share with you something I heard during my golden hour.

Successful people don’t waste their time!

They spend it wisely and participate in seminars and educate themselves to become better in what ever area they work in. They also do fun things but they don’t waste their life watching sports or soaps on tv by example or gossiping with people. They are masters in time management.

And another thing if you copy the behaviors and life of a successful person you too will become successful. So pick a role model for you and try it.

I smile to myself when I write this because it makes me realise that I will become both rich and successful because I am doing all of those things.
I copied my sucessful customer by buying the watch. I changed my style and I read like crazy and thank God for all the seminars on Youtube!
I can really feel that I am on the right track. And I am loving every second of it!

So go out there and have a splenderific day!


Starting an I love list.

I’m reading The Power by Rhonda Byrne and it says you should make an I love list and it sounds appealing to me so here we go.

I love the feeling I get when the sun is shing on me.

I love to watch the see and all the yachts that are out sailing.

I love my cats and their little pranks.

I love the fact that I can walk in high heels again. :))

I love to meet people that makes a difference in my life.

I love to laugh until I cry.

I love to watch Dexter and other good series.

I love to drink champagne.

I love to take off my shoes and stick my feet into the sand.

I love babies. I could just eat them!! :))

I love dogs, especially that cold and wet nose they put in your eye early in the morning.

I love the smell of mens perfume.

I love to drink chilean wine.

I love my fresh juice.

I love that I am getting better and better for every day that goes.

I love that for each day that goes it brings me on day closer to the man of my dreams!

I love that I have the ability to create my own future.

I love my new watch! 🙂

I think it is enough for now. What do you love? Now I am going to do some Ho’oponopono while I am sitting in the sunshine. All people are somewhere else and I can focus on the bird song.

Have an amazing day!


Good Evening Infidels…. *wiggling my eyebrows the Achmed style*
I just love Jeff Dunhams, Achmed the dead terrorist. It makes me laugh so I cry every time. If you haven’t seen it then go to Youtube NOW and search for Achmed the dead terrorist. You will laugh so hard that you get exercise pain if you have the same sense of humor as me. 

So I will try to keep this post short because I am supposed to be in my bed sleeping right now but I just wanted to share this…
Firsts, I just love them.. The first step, my first Barbie, my first kiss, my first boyfriend, apartment, car, holiday etc.. And today I had another first.. 
After a lot of thinking and a bit of anxiety I decided to invest in myself and buy my first Swiss made watch. So I am now a proud owner of a Tissot PRC 100…  (= 
So why the anxiety? Well first of all, it is a lot of money for me and I have not yet mastered to get  my money manifestations as often as I want them.. Second of all it was not a watch I fell in love with. It is not really my style BUT it is a really nice watch that is growing on me. It has class! 
So why did I decide to buy this watch if I didn’t love it? Well in my line of work selling expensive jewelry and watches it does not look good if am wearing a cheap scratched copy watch. Nothing wrong with copies except that you need to exchange them, like all the time! Any way it would be like selling something expensive wearing extremely worn down jeans, hmmm I actually did sell Mac computers dressed like that when I was called in on a day off so maybe that was not a good example…. Well you know what I mean anyway. 

Well I needed a watch that would look, classy, elegant, not too cheap and not too expensive and would give a good impression. I fell in love with a simple Raymond Weil watch but it was not within my budget but my colleagues all recommended this one to me and I have to admit that they have good taste. There was only one and the chance of getting a new one would be very difficult so after behaving like a real Swedish person and think about it in every possible aspect 511 times, I decided to stop being a sissy and just do it because the would come more money from the place wherever money comes from!! (or they will for some reason decide to let me have this watch for free at work 😉 <— Positive thinking. Hahaha

After I bought the watch I felt a bit like Bambi on thin ice but everyone paid me compliments for it and you this amazing customer I met yesterday? Well she came back and she has very good taste especially when it comes to watches and she immediately noticed my watch and she got all exited about it and that was the moment when I knew that I had made the right choice. And then I started to love my watch.

That woman was one of the reasons to why I wanted to buy a better watch, she is a strong, independent woman and she is everything I want to be when I reach her age and successful people like that don’t wear crap watches. They buy real things and quality from the beginning and that folks is how you make good investments. So that is what I will do, I will buy good things from the beginning and be careful with what I got!

And now it is time for me to dream some sweet dreams about my handsome future husband and tell him to buy a GPS so he can hurry up and find me soon. 😛

Stay safe!

I love my new watch!!

Bad energy and babies, again! :)

Wow I am amazed! For 2 days I have been so tired and haven’t got anything done at home. I think it is the Qi gong that is clearing stuff out. But anyway it is nice to be lazy and just pamper yourself isn’t it? I have a Masters degree in self pampering! 🙂
Today at work there was a lot of negative energy and fighting and it all happened when I was waiting for my group and I could feel how it was disturbing me and that I needed some fresh energy. I was walking around doing my breathing and realising of bad energy but I told my colleague that I hope a baby comes to make it all nice again. And voila a baby came! I didn’t get close to it or talked to it. I just had one look, smiled big and felt happy inside, said Masallah! (That is something islamic people say to not bring bad luck from envy and I kind of liked that thought so I borrowed it from them) And immidiately I felt how my energy was balanced out and I started to feel better and *bam* I got a awesome customer and sold for a lot of money! Thank you Universe!! Now my colleagues are a bit jealous so I need to do some more energy clearing. I think I need to hurry up with learning about chakras and how to protect myself from other peoples energies this year. If any of you have any ideas or recommendations on how to do this please feel free to share. Now I will continue to enjoy the sun here at work until next group/ sale comes 😉 and I wish you all an awesome day!

Stay safe!