No limit living!

Hello my wonderful co-creators.

I hope that you all are well and safe. If you are in Belgium, then I would like to give you my condolences, love and prayers. It is a sad time in the world when you can be attacked anywhere and at any time. I can not stop the terrorists, I can not undo what they have done and I can not bring back the dead. But I can send love, light and healing and continue to spread the love. And I can clean..

I love you, I am sorry,  please forgive me, thank you. 

If you are unfamiliar with the statement above, it is known as Ho’oponopono and it is a clearing statement. It cleans your vibration and everything that is wrong in the world caused by us and our ancestors. You can read more about it here. If you want to help me cleanse, then repeat the sentence above every time you possible can or at least every time Daesh/ISIS is mentioned.

As a light worker, I feel that it is part of my obligation to send love and healing to the people in need and cleanse as much as I possibly can. I also feel that it is important to not give the terrorists what they want, they want us to be petrified so we start doing what they want. That is their only goal with what they are doing. To that I say, they wont scare me, I will be more cautious of course, but I refuse to let them limit, control my life and how I decide to live it!

Mastin Kipp posted a video about this, please watch it.
Mastin Kipps video on Brüssel.

“As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me.”

Sending love & light to you all and please stay safe.

Namaste,
Tinha

 

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I am walking down another street!

I love Dr Wayne Dyer and I miss him a lot, bless his soul. I often watch his seminars on YouTube and I try to implement what he taught us in his videos. There is especially one seminar, where he reads a poem by Portia Nelson that I like very much, and yesterday late at night I finally, got it. I really got it!

You see, I am a single woman, who is very attracted to the alpha male types. You know the highly successful men, who make things happen, they can make decisions and they are going somewhere in life. Many of them are business leaders, managers, CEO:s etc and some of them are narcissists…

I am very familiar with narcissists, I was raised by one, my mother. I later on dated them, but at that time they were bad boys. Then I grew up and met a very successful man, let’s call him P. He was a biker, but not one of those biker gang guys. He was handsome, smart, cool, and he could make money out of anything, he was very talented. I was so impressed by him, his intelligence and his ability to make money. And the best part, he really liked me, or at least so I thought..
He also had a son, who I later found out also was a narcissist and I spent more than 4 years living with them. It nearly destroyed me, I lost myself in the process. He broke my heart totally and it took a long, long time for me to pick up the pieces. This was before I moved to Turkey and he was one of the reasons to why I moved.

I cut all ties and seized all contact with him and his son. No fb, no messages, nothing. This was really hard because I was obsessed with him, his attention was like heroin to me. But I did it, because of  5 very good friends of mine. Veronica, Stellan, Christer, Ingela, Jeppe and Victoria. Without them I couldn’t have done it. Thank you!

I have bumped into him again a few times after that when I have been home, but I totally ignore him, no hello, no contact. I know very well that I can’t even talk to him even once, because I will be drawn into his web all over again and it will kill me this time. It is just like a sober heroin addict, who just  wants to have one small fix for old times sake. *KAABOOM* Straight back into addiction! And I love myself way too much to even consider it.

This was back in 2008 when the relationship ended and even today he is still effecting me very much, I dream about him a lot at night, he is in my mind. Sometimes I can hear his voice when there is something that triggers a memory. I used to hate him but I don’t anymore. I am grateful, because of him I started to read more and more about human behavior, I started to study my own behavior and I improved myself and many other positive things, I became more aware. I would never have done that if I would have stayed in his presence. He also taught me what red flags and warning signs to look out for. This was really learning by doing.

Unfortunately though, I don’t dare to trust my instincts when I see the red flags. I start to question myself, is it me who is overly cautious and paranoid? Perhaps I am just being silly and scared after the relationship I had? So I find myself in the same position over and over again since the universe will unmercifully repeat the situation until you have learned the damned lesson! That is how it is and I am a very, very slow learner sometimes.
Until yesterday that is..

Last year in 2o15, I met a man online, lets call him R.  He seemed perfect, he was tall, very intellectual, wanted kids, had an extremely high IQ, he was looking for the same kind of relationship as I was looking for and he really understood me. Sure there was a few things that was weird, we only had contact when he wanted to and sometimes he avoided my questions, it was like he was blowing hot and cold but I was really interested in him. We decided to meet and he flew out here to meet me. At this time I had some intense dreams about my ex P, I couldn’t understand why I had that. I was totally focused on the new guy so it didn’t make sense at all. Guess what, during those 3 days we spent together there was temper tantrums, he pushed me, he screamed at me for interrupting him, he got upset because I didn’t take good enough pictures of him and he took an incredible amount of selfies (around 100). It was all about him. I even left him in the restaurant in the middle of dinner because he was behaving totally unacceptable. After we parted I sent him an email asking him to send the few pictures he took of me, I never got an answer. He was another narcissist. The good news is that this time it took 3 days to figure it and not 4 years.

After this episode, I have bumped into a few more narcissists online, and the most current one is a Swedish man who was behaving very much like R, he even looks like R! The funny part is that it is the same story all over again, self focused, he is promoting himself, disappearing for a few weeks and then showing up again just to be so incredibly busy but he wants to fly out here and meet me. And guess what, I got so pissed off by his behavior!
Who the fuck do he think he is? You see, since I have been around so many narcissists, I have read up on them and I have learned to discover them sooner and I know how to break up with them. But it also made me stronger and it made me realize my own value and when someone tries to walk all over me I become angry and that anger helps me move mountains. So when Mr Sweden contacted me I politely blew him off and it felt great! You cannot win or get revenge on a narcissist, don’t even try. Just make sure that they leave you alone.

And then I realized one thing, this time I have been thinking a lot and having very vivid dreams about both P and R!! I didn’t make the connection until this Swedish man tried to do his trick again. Whenever I come close to a narcissist my subconscious is guiding and warning me and I have been too blocked to see it! *rolls up a newspaper and hits myself on the head with it!* Stupid, stupid, stupid!!

I mean it is so obvious, how could I not see it?!  And then when I went to bed and I had finished writing in my journal, it hit me straight in the face, gently with a chair, what Wayne Dyer and Portia Nelson wanted to say with this poem. Late shall the sinner awake..
If you want to see the video with Wayne Dyer when he reads the poem, click here

THERE’S A HOLE IN MY SIDEWALK
Autobiography in Five Short Chapters
By Portia Nelson

Chapter One
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost …. I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter Two
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend that I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in this same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter Three
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in … it’s a habit … but, my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter Four
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter Five
I walk down another street.

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I am SO walking down another street my friends!!
Namaste,
Tinha

Gratitude.. #propeace

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Many of you have heard about the suicide bombing today in Istanbul on the pedestrian street, the bombing in Ankara and the one at Sultan Ahmet area in Istanbul over a month ago. It feels so unreal that it is happening here. Sure we have some problems in the East part of Turkey but to attack innocent people for no reason is just horrendous.  In the area where I live it is quite safe but these suicide bombers can show up anywhere.

Today when I heard the news about Istanbul I immediately thought of my friend who works somewhere there. I got really scared and sent him messages. No answer for hours and I was becoming very worried. The he wrote me and I can only say that my heart was filled with gratitude because he was safe. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

My heart goes out to every victim and every family who has lost a loved one. Please do not pray only for Turkey, pray for the world!

I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, tank you.

Namaste,
Tinha

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An interesting conversation…

Hello my co-creators!

I hope that you are all feeling like a man who just took a Ferrari for a test ride for the first time of his life! 🙂  I imagine that it will be a real adrenaline kick and so much fun! 🙂

This will be another work related post. Sometimes I come across really interesting people and they all teach me something. Today was one of those days.

One of my roles at work is that I am giving public speeches at my job, telling customers about gold and precious stones like diamonds. It is not easy to keep their attention and most of them are not willing to buy anything and just want to run out of the gold center as soon as possible.
So I have made it a personal challenge to get their attention and to make them laugh but also to involve the men.

One of the men came up to me afterwards and complimented me on my speech and how I explain things. We started talking and he told me that he has always been his own boss and never been employed and I told him that it was my goal as well and he said, well girl you have every skill you need to manage that. You have leadership skills, social skills, good sales techniques, you are strict and you can control people plus you are smart. You will succeed as soon as you find your area of expertise.

For me, not having a formal education I have always felt a bit ashamed over that but I am starting to see that I am a pretty awesome person and that I have many qualities and skills that no school would be able to teach me. Even if I think highly of myself it does feel good to be acknowledged by a stranger who can see this in me after half and hour. It made me feel proud over me. 🙂 It made it feel extra good that they decided to buy a beautiful diamond necklace.  How does it get any better than this?

Be awesome!
Tinha

Why I want to become my own boss.

I have always wanted to become my own boss and there are several reasons for this.

1. I like to work from home and decide my own work hours.
2. No colleagues = NO drama!
3. If something goes wrong it is my own fault and only I am to blame.
4. I don’t get emotionally drained.
5. It will be structured in a way that I like.
6. Satisfaction, I can get the mental satisfaction I need.
7. I will be independent.
8. I can make a difference.
9.I want to become rich.
10. I would be good at it! 🙂

Right now point nr 2 is my biggest motivation besides the obvious nr 9.
I am so tired of the cat fights between people at work places, the gossip, jealousy, the incompetence etc. I have had enough, I want to work alone, be able to focus on my job and get closer to my goals. I don’t want to hear about how stupid/wrong that co-worker is or that I shouldn’t spend time with that or this person. Seriously, who the fuck cares? I spend time with the people I feel good with and who gives me the least head aches. I have come to the age where I want my life to be simple. If I don’t like someone then I don’t want to spend time with them. I can be civil and polite but I have no need to have them in my life, and that is totally OK. I do not have the need to get along with everyone. I am not the jerk whisperer!

When I was living in Sweden and I wasn’t able to work, people told me that it was important for me to get back into the work environment because of the social life. I never understood the meaning of having work as a social thing and going to after work events. Many people identify with themselves with their work and it becomes their whole identity. Guess what happens when they lose their job… Total break down.

For me it is all about the money, I love money and I want to make as much of it as I possibly can! The day job I am doing now, is a job that I will do until I figure out what kind of business I should start, because let’s face it, most people don’t get rich working for someone else. That’s why you have the Queen bee and worker bees.

I do my best to get the full potential out of my time I spend at work, I try to learn as much as I can and build my knowledge in this way. I am testing different sales techniques, I am training myself in reading people, I am working on my public speaking skills but also my leadership and communication skills etc so I do actually get some exchange from it besides the money, so I show up at work, I give it the best I got while I am there but when I am out of work I don’t have the need to hang with my colleagues. In fact I don’t have the need to hang with anyone and I  guess it depends on introvert side of me, I am what they call an ambivert. It means that I can be both extroverted and introverted. Charming, fun and anti social at the same time. 🙂

It also means that I am very restrictive with whom I spend my free time with. Being an empath who are surrounded by a lot of people every day, I give a lot of myself and when the workday is over I am mentally exhausted from working with customers and listening to my colleagues. I rarely have energy to do something after work. I need my alone time to de-stress and do things that fills up my energy tank. Or as I see it, I am laying the foundation to my empire. So what do I do when I am alone?

Well most of the times I listen to different seminars on Youtube to be honest.
But I also read a lot, I watch one or two episodes of one of my favorite series or a documentary, I paint, I blog, I create, I write in my future journal or vision board, I do a lot of spiritual work,  I spend a lot of time thinking and every day I meditate and interact with my cats. I also go for a lot of walks as it helps me clear my mind and at the same time I am listening to some audio books. I do everything that makes me feel good and less of the things that makes me feel not so good.
Note to self: Get a cleaning lady and robot vacuum cleaner ASAP.

I spend time speaking with friends, across the world, who are like minded, successful and most of the time smarter than I, because I firmly believe that you become like the people you surround yourself with. And if you are always the smartest person in the room then it is time to change the room. You will not grow as a person otherwise.

Well this was a small part of what motivates me to break out from the rat race and walk my own path. What does your work mean to you and what are your motivations?

Be safe.
Tinha

 

You have a choice.

Hello fellow earthlings.

A few things have happened since our last time. I am in a new town and I am working at a new place. It is still in Turkey but it is a town called Kusadasi. I got tired of being in Marmaris during the winter because it was really a struggle for me to be there. I will not go into all the negative things, let’s just say that I am happy that I made this decision. I will be going back to Marmaris 13th of April.

So this new job is still in the gold business and I am surrounded by abundance! I am wearing jewelry with a price tag of 290.000 Euros and that is just one necklace!! I mean how does it get any better than that??  🙂 I feel so rich! I have changed as a person and I am getting in touch with my femininity again. I feel so good here that I don’t want to go back to my other job but I am trying to put my focus on the positive aspects of it. By example I will be close to my chiropractor and that means that I will have less pain in my pelvic area, I will be able to take wonderful walks along the beach every morning and I will live closer to the ocean. I will see my street cat Floke again and my cute little neighbor Koray 🙂 I will have my hammock to lay in during the summer evening and I can look at the stars and my new friend from work is actually living in Marmaris so I wont be alone. Not to mention my wonderful friends from Scandinavia, UK and the Netherlands  that will come for visits!
So there is a lot of positive things. That is what I am focusing on, there are always something good to hang on to.

I can give you another example, the tourism here in Turkey has been very effected by the terrorists and people thinks that it is a major war zone over here so they are cancelling their trips. Our boss decided that he needed to cut our salaries with 10% very month temporarily everyone was so angry and upset. People turned to me and asked me why I didn’t seem upset with it. My response: Of course it effects me but do you know what, right now I am just grateful that I still have my job and that no one got sacked.

You see, it is all about how you choose to see things.
Later on we heard that we might get the money back at the end of the season so that’s what I am focusing on right now. 🙂

Be safe.
Tinha

 

 

Baby booming day!

Today I woke up and said that it would be a wonderful day, there was magic in the air and guess what?!  My niece and her wife gave birth to their baby boy Tristan and he is absolutely gorgeous!

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Meet Tristan The Wonderful

My colleague at work became a father as well so it was a total baby day today!

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Plus,  finally the long wait for closing my grandmother’s account is now finally over! We recieved an excellent service from the bank even though I am in Turkey and the bank is in Sweden.  How does it get any better than this?! 

I am listening to Grant Cardone and Brian Tracy in the mornings and thanks to that I now feel inspired to start up my webshop again and continue to sell the beautiful magnetic jewelry from Energetix Bingen. And another friend wants us to go into business together and it seems like a really good idea and a customer at work will email me her company information that also seem like an lucrative business. It is just coming at me from everywhere. 🙂

I have asked the universe and Golden Sunrise 🌅  for help with an increased income and now I will recieve it in any way I can.

Another thing is that I have promised myself that I will read for 2 hours a day (at work) one business/sales book and one self help book and I will train for 2 hours a day. 

Another things is that I will declutter because rich and prosperous people dont live with clutter. I think I will follow the KonMari method, it seems to work.

I feel inspired, now I need to set things into motion. What are you doing to change your current situation?

Please share and let us inspie each other!

Zoot zoot!
Tinha