Hello you beautiful people, I hope you are all doing well.

I have always been interested with visualization since I was 15 years old and started to read this book that my mother had bought, it was called Creative Visualization: Use the Power of Your Imagination to Create What You Want in Your Life by Shakti Gawain
I loved it and I read it so much that it started to fall apart, I can tell you that my mother was not happy about that. I highly recommend this book because it has a lot of good advice, especially if you are a novice to visualization.

However, I had a problem.. No matter how hard I tried to visualize I could not see things in my mind. The disappointment was huge. I tried, I kept on trying and then I finally gave up. As soon as I came across a page or a book that mentioned visualization it was like game over for me. I kept trying though and I kept trying to find information about the HOW to visualize and boy I have gone through a lot of YouTube videos and webpages.

If you are one of those people who can visualize then I am very happy for you, but if you are like me, I want you to know that there is hope. You see, one day I stumbled upon a webpage that told me that it is OK if you can’t visualize. It is the emotion that is the active ingredient you see. So I started to try to feel how it would feel to be where I wanted to be, how it would feel to have the things I wanted to have and that was a bit easier.

So then one morning, when I was sitting on the bus on my way to work, I was looking out the window while listening to music. I got a weird feeling that I was not sitting on a bus, I was sitting on an airplane, I was not on my way to work but to Los Angeles! I started to smile with my whole face and it felt fantastic!! I finally got it! This is what you and I need to do to get the things we want. We need to feel how it feels to be there and not here. Ridiculously simple right? I can tell you that this realization felt like a million bucks and it made manifesting a lot more fun. I call this process Feelization and I like it very much and I practice it a lot.

So what are you going to attract into your life using Feelization? List it below in the comment field and share the energy. 🙂

Stay in the vortex peps!





Turning Chaos into Cosmos

I’m sitting here again… In the middle of the night with a snake nest of feelings. I’m thinking about my ex, if I dare to trust him again. Should I follow my heart or do what I have been doing for more than a year now and try to resist? Or should I just throw myself out there over the cliff and feel. Love without limits and not knowing what will come next. Stop thinking and live like there is no tomorrow. Love with all I have got knowing that it might hurt in the end but just be here and now and let go of all control that I love to have.
Maybe, I don’t know. If I do I will feel like I betray my friends that has been there for me.
But if I don’t then maybe I betray me. My panic attacks are an indicator that I am not doing very well. So I will take one day at a time and do what feels best in that moment when it comes to love. I don’t know what will happen and it is ok. Maybe I need to break down in a way I never have done before to be able to move on? Who knows..  All I know is that I do love him and I can not deny that, I will stop trying to understand why I love him, it just is.
I am sure it will resolve itself for the better. 

I am worried about my Visa renewal.. I put my trust in a dear friend but it might not turn out like it was planned and that means I will have some problems getting my visa and without my visa I will not get a work permit. I need to have some money in the bank just for show and since I don’t make that much working here it can be hard to raise the money especially at the beginning of the season so I was planning on doing 3 years this time so I eliminate one thing that gives me stress. But now I don’t know what will happen. I believe in my friend, I don’t loose faith. Maybe I just need to ask a few more people instead of getting it all from one place. I am confident in that it will be ok.
I will get my Visa for more than one year.

I seem to have lost a few friends this week and I get remarks and comments that hurt my feelings. I don’t know what is going on but I don’t like it so I am distancing myself from them. I wonder if it has to do with the massive de-cluttering I did in my bedroom, it can stir up a lot of things if you believe in Feng Shui like I do.. People are just rude out of no where saying horrible things and you become totally shocked because you don’t see it coming. I guess I need to do some cleaning… I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you.
Well I wish those people luck in their lives and I hope they will live a long and happy life.

Now when they are gone there are room for some lovely and positive people. People who sees ME and accepts that I am different but have a good heart. People who inspires me and let me return the favor. I met one woman, she is a bit older but what and inspiration she is. I hope I am like her when I reach her age.
Wow, she is just awesome!

Someone told me today that life is not supposed to be this emotional roller coaster I am on at the moment but like a nice river with a steady flow. I really liked the sound of that and I could relate to that. I feel like I need to find my way back into the good feeling and how to stay there no matter what. When I learn that I will be a rich woman shortly after that I think. 🙂 Writing helps a lot even though this blog was not meant to went my personal things on but what the heck they are part of me. And I have decided that I will turn my life around and be successful in all areas so it is only fair that you get to follow me in my ups and downs.
The most fantastic river flows inside me, I just have to reach it. 

I want to thank my friends for listening to me, supporting and comforting me when I am down. You guys are true friends ans sometimes we sit and laugh even though we are crying and going through some rough periods. I feel very lucky to have you in my corner.  You are like Mickey in Rocky. Hard but right and you kick my ass when I need it.
I can do this!


Ho ‘oponopono made simple

This is a long post about Ho ‘oponopono but well worth reading.

In a nutshell it is all about forgiveness. It’s about bringing all of those irritating and nutty people you meet and have problems with into a place of forgiveness for all their messed-up ways. Because, in Polynesian cultures, many believe that one’s so-called errors and the subsequent guilt can cause illness. The way to counter the illness is to confess the error. One who fails to confess dies. You have to step up and take responsibility and confess and after that comes atonement.

A heartfelt request for forgiveness is made. It goes something like:
I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you

Once you have made the confession and apology is made, the illness loses its power.
And therein lies the healing. Ho’oponopono is all about healing.
The transgressor, a.k.a. the bad boss, bad guy, family jerk, ex boyfriend, etc is healed.

When you put out a good vibe out there, you have the power to heal. Your self, your family, the people who surrounds you and your world. And it’s your job on this planet to put out a good vibe. You can’t throw a dinner party (your life!) and just sit in the corner and then expect everyone else to bring you the dinner (happiness)!
So forget who is to blame and who was wrong. Just do it and do it for YOU (and the other person) and you will start to feel better.


By Joe Vitale

“Two years ago, I heard about a therapist in Hawaii who cured a complete ward of criminally insane patients–without ever seeing any of them. The psychologist would study an inmate’s chart and then look within himself to see how he created that person’s illness. As he improved himself, the patient improved.

“When I first heard this story, I thought it was an urban legend. How could anyone heal anyone else by healing himself? How could even the best self-improvement master cure the criminally insane? It didn’t make any sense. It wasn’t logical, so I dismissed the story.

“However, I heard it again a year later. I heard that the therapist had used a Hawaiian healing process called ho ‘oponopono. I had never heard of it, yet I couldn’t let it leave my mind. If the story was at all true, I had to know more. I had always understood “total responsibility” to mean that I am responsible for what I think and do. Beyond that, it’s out of my hands. I think that most people think of total responsibility that ay. We’re responsible for what we do, not what anyone else does–but that’s wrong.

“The Hawaiian therapist who healed those mentally ill people would teach me an advanced new perspective about total responsibility. His name is Dr. Ihaleakala Hew Len. We probably spent an hour talking on our first phone call. I asked him to tell me the complete story of his work as a therapist. He explained that he worked at Hawaii State Hospital for four years. That ward where they kept the criminally insane was dangerous.

Psychologists quit on a monthly basis. The staff called in sick a lot or simply quit. People would walk through that ward with their backs against the wall, afraid of being attacked by patients. It was not a pleasant place to live, work, or visit.

“Dr. Len told me that he never saw patients. He agreed to have an office and to review their files. While he looked at those files, he would work on himself. As he worked on himself, patients began to heal.

“‘After a few months, patients that had to be shackled were being allowed to walk freely,’ he told me. ‘Others who had to be heavily medicated were getting off their medications. And those who had no chance of ever being released were being freed.’ I was in awe.’Not only that,’ he went on, ‘but the staff began to enjoy coming to work. Absenteeism and turnover disappeared. We ended up with more staff than we needed because patients were being released, and all the staff was showing up to work. Today, that ward is closed.’

“This is where I had to ask the million dollar question: ‘What were you doing within yourself that caused those people to change?’

‘I was simply healing the part of me that created them,’ he said. I didn’t understand. Dr. Len explained that total responsibility for your life means that everything in your life- simply because it is in your life–is your responsibility. In a literal sense the entire world is your creation.

“Whew. This is tough to swallow. Being responsible for what I say or do is one thing. Being responsible for what everyone in my life says or does is quite another. Yet, the truth is this: if you take complete responsibility for your life, then everything you see, hear, taste, touch, or in any way experience is your responsibility because it is in your life. This means that terrorist activity, the president, the economy or anything you experience and don’t like–is up for you to heal. They don’t exist, in a manner of speaking, except as projections from inside you. The problem isn’t with them, it’s with you, and to change them, you have to change you.

“I know this is tough to grasp, let alone accept or actually live. Blame is far easier than total responsibility, but as I spoke with Dr. Len, I began to realize that healing for him and in ho ‘oponopono means loving yourself.

“If you want to improve your life, you have to heal your life. If you want to cure anyone, even a mentally ill criminal you do it by healing you.

“I asked Dr. Len how he went about healing himself. What was he doing, exactly, when he looked at those patients’ files?

“‘I just kept saying, ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘I love you’ over and over again,’ he explained.

“That’s it?

“That’s it.

“Turns out that loving yourself is the greatest way to improve yourself, and as you improve yourself, you improve your world.

“Let me give you a quick example of how this works: one day, someone sent me an email that upset me. In the past I would have handled it by working on my emotional hot buttons or by trying to reason with the person who sent the nasty message.

“This time, I decided to try Dr. Len’s method. I kept silently saying, ‘I’m sorry’ and ‘I love you,’ I didn’t say it to anyone in particular. I was simply evoking the spirit of love to heal within me what was creating the outer circumstance.

“Within an hour I got an e-mail from the same person. He apologized for his previous message. Keep in mind that I didn’t take any outward action to get that apology. I didn’t even write him back. Yet, by saying ‘I love you,’ I somehow healed within me what was creating him.

“I later attended a ho ‘oponopono workshop run by Dr. Len. He’s now 70 years old, considered a grandfatherly shaman, and is somewhat reclusive.

He praised my book, The Attractor Factor. He told me that as I improve myself, my book’s vibration will raise, and everyone will feel it when they read it. In short, as I improve, my readers will improve.

“‘What about the books that are already sold and out there?’ I asked.

“‘They aren’t out there,’ he explained, once again blowing my mind with his mystic wisdom. ‘They are still in you.’ In short, there is no out there. It would take a whole book to explain this advanced technique with the depth it deserves.

“Suffice It to say that whenever you want to improve anything in your life, there’s only one place to look: inside you. When you look, do it with love.”

Joe Vitale and Dr Hew Len
This “miracle story” goes around the world for many years. Dr Hew Len gives courses and workshops about Ho’Oponopono.
Together with Joe Vitale Dr. Hew Len published the book “zero limits”.


Work manifestation II

I thought I should give you a little update. I went to the interview, I was a bit nervous but I had already decided in my mind that I would get the job. And I did! Actually they asked me if I could consider working there. 🙂 And here in Turkey we only work 7 months a year but they were planning ahead and talked about next year as well! So it was quite interesting and surprising. I left the shop with a smile because not only was the man I talked with very handsome and extremely nice I also think he is single and fitting my Mc Dreamy wishlist perfectly and he made me exited about the work itself. So who knows maybe this will be a like a kinder egg manifestation, 3 in 1 manifestations! Love, money and a totally new career. That would be awesome! 😀

Well since I will be working in a very expensive shop I need to dress nicely so that means a whole new wardrobe. Coming from a low income family I am used to second hand clothing so I was thinking how nice it would be if I could get hold of some second hand  classy clothes in size 14-16. Well guess what…
A person I have never met but have interacted with on FB said that she had some classy clothes and shoes that she never used in my size and she will send them to me, from another country! She started a Tinha box. How sweet of her! 🙂
And then I thought hey lets put out an ad on one of the buy/sell groups on FB as well and almost instantly a woman said hey I have 2 skirts that would be perfect for you.. 5 Euro for both! Talk about being in sync with the universe and I love it! It feels amazing. Now I want to buy some shirts and a black and a grey skirt plus my friends electric scooter for 800 TL and not start paying it until I have started to work. 🙂

My life is truly splenderific! I can really feel that the Universe is on my side.
I feel really, really happy! 🙂 Thank you Cosmos/Universe
Photo courtesy of pareeerica

Getting back into the right state of mind.

Sometimes things happens that gets us off balance and that is ok. What is important is to get back up in the saddle. I am one of those persons who can’t let go and goes over it in my mind, over and over again. It is really hard for me to break the pattern but my will and determination is stronger than anything else. I am still trying to master my feelings but I thought I would share with you a few things I do and one thing I learned yesterday from SARK. Never heard of SARK before so I am actually exploring planet SARK right now. 🙂 Ok so this is what I do when I am low / sad / angry / hurt.

I allow myself to be sad.
I am sad for a little while, I cry a little to let it out. I might listen to music that feels appropriate at the moment.

I do something to stop it.
I follow SARKS advice: “Set your fears on fire! Write them down and burn them up. This is a process of liberating and separating you from your fears” So I write my fears down, ALL of them and I am completely honest about it and then I reread the list and then I burn it up and say to myself: Ok we are done now.

I start my quest
I have learned that laughter helps so I start my quest for laughter. I might ask for help from my friends by saying: “Hey I feel like crap do you have any good jokes / Youtube videos / songs you can share that will cheer me up?” Bill Engvall and Jeff Dunham and some Swedish comedians always cracks me up. And then I might start to put on some good dance music just to get out of my own misery because I can not be miserable when I listen to Guru Josh’s Infinity for example. And if it is the weekend I try to go out dancing and enjoy myself. Here you have to find what makes you feel good and adjust it so it fits you. Maybe fishing, golf etc.

I Fake it until I make it
Don’t get me wrong, the bad thoughts and feelings are still showing their ugly faces once in a while but I just say: “Hi, yes I saw that you stopped by now go away!” So I try to laugh and smile as much as possible and I try to find cute and funny things on facebook and give positive comments. Fake it until you make it really works for me.

But when you lay in bed before you sleep then it can be hard. What I will say now might be hard for some of you and you can read more about it here. But it is to forgive the
&#(@¤#&”¤ that hurt you… So I take some time to do Ho’oponopono.
It is basically to see the person in front of you and say:

    • I am sorry
    • I love you
    • Please forgive me
    • Thank you

But you have to MEAN it! Repeat it until it starts to feel better inside of you. This is you taking the responsibility of the situation to make both you and them feel better. Don’t think about that they did/where wrong. We will get to this in a later post. Just do it! This is about YOU and how to make YOU feel better. Ok have you done it? Great! 🙂

My Sweet Dreams
If you are anything like me you think way to much when you sleep as well so thats when I put on my Kelly Howells Awakening Kundalini guided mediation. You are not supposed to fall asleep with it on but I use it as my goodnight story. It stops me from thinking negative thoughts just before I fall asleep.

Good Morning Sunshine
And when I wake up in the morning I start with the hopponnoppo directly and then I turn on the good music immediately and I start my quest to find more positive things. And I also try to smile towards people I meat and say nice things. And appreciate the sunshine by example or that nice coffee I had on my break. And it works!

So these are the things that works for me and hopefully someone out there might get helped by this. Now I will go out and enjoy the wonderful sunshine and feel the how it’s heat on my cheeks.
What do you do when you feel low? Please feel free to share. 🙂